My Career Counselor is a BIATCH.

I simply hate her. Talk so much about being a caring career counselor, its all crap talk. Wa lao, i cant wait to get out of SMU too. Crap school. I dont even know why this old hag was being hired in the first place. And HELLO…your salary comes from my dad’s pocket?!

Few weeks ago:

I called you to ask about meeting you and talk about my credit units and resume compilation. I told you i deleted the email hence i didnt catch the deadline at all and you shouted at me over the phone! I told you, “relax, you dun have to be so rude.” You nag and nag non-stop about students not checking their emails at all. HELLO….THE FREAKING SCHOOL SPAM OUR INBOX EVERYDAY WITH SO MANY USELESS MAILS, you think we bother to read every single one of them? For me, i always mass delete cos my inbox is ALWAYS FULL.

1 week ago:

THEN I submitted my resume late…but i informed you and asked for a later deadline because i was involved in the vida loca bazaar and you said OKAY so i thought you were REALLY OKAY about it.

Yesterday:

This is what happened. I was supposed to meet her(Miss Teo) at smu admin building level 7. I dunno why, but i thought it was supposed to be an individual meeting, meaning one-to-one so that she can better advise on our resume. But…she made it into a group session instead. Lazy, maybe? I dunno. I was 10 minutes early. Stepped into the room and she saw me. She immediately exclaimed, “Oh. Georgiana.” Obviously she knew me. I sat there and she started talking about all the mistakes that everyone made during the resume compilation. That was a general feedback. At least i thought it was because she wasnt mentioning any names at all. Then, out of a sudden, i looked up at her while she was talking about this freaking minute detail-FULLSTOPS. She said, “SOME of you are so inconsistent with your full stops,some part of your resume you put full stops,then other parts, you leave out. ” Finishing that, she straightaway pointed her finger at ME and said, “Yes you. you are the one”. Im like….wtf. Its just fullstops, which superficial company will reconsider hiring someone just because she is inconsistent with her fullstops?! CRAPPPP.

Then..moving on. I really think she has a problem and personal grudge against me. Perhaps its because i said she was rude. But she really was. I dont understand why a counselor can have such a one-sided attitude. She started to nag at me and said my resume is so blank, i have nothing as compared to other smu students in the room. Can i say that she talked relatively LOUD in front of other students?! She didnt even consider that i might MIND her voice and content. Not only that, she said, “Other people need to take things out because they have too much content, but for you, i think you just increase your font size to 12 to fill up the 2 pages limit.” My mind went into a blank. She’s literally pouring cold water all over me and still expect me to acknowledge her as my counselor when she’s totally not encouraging at all?! Biatch. The reason why my resume is blank is not because im lazy or heck care about my studies, its because im committed to other things in my life that caused this. Do you know how freaking hard it is to study in such an over-hyped and competitive school while managing and expanding my business?! Ya, obviously she doesnt know thats why she can only be a career counselor.  She looked down on me..never mind…she went on to ask me about MDS. She’s like totally not convinced that i have a business, she was like, “You have a business? Thats yours right? Did you register it?” “If you have your own business, you need to use ACTION VERBS like communicated, assisted, advertised to describe all the things you do.” I was super peeved by her words already so i replied, “If i were to use action verb for every single thing i do for this business, i think 2 pages is not enough.” Then out of a sudden, she made me reach my LIMIT. I was at my PEAK. She said, “Why you have hot pink nails? Wa, hot pink nails.” F*CKING BITCH!!!!!!!!!!! You really have a problem with me right?! Wad is wrong with my hot pink nails? This is just an informal session for my resume critique, its not even an interview and HELLO, im still in school ok. Old hag, have you seen how many smu girls have BLACK nails?! Wa, sorry lah but i have a hunch that she either freaking hate me or she’s jealous of my nails. Oops.

Here comes the FINALE. I wanted to leave already because im fuming with anger. Enduring all her nonsense, i spoke nicely to her and said, “I will hand in my edited resume to you after my exams.” She said, “You better hand in early arh. You were the last to hand in.” I replied, “But this time round, the deadline is 25 of april right?” She finally replied, “Yes, thats the deadline, but doesnt mean you can only hand in on that date, you should hand in earlier since you were late the previous time.”

THEN WHY CAME UP WITH A FREAKING DEADLINE?!!!! DUMB ASS.

Oh and did i mention that all the while, she looked at me with her corner of her eye. She didnt even looked at me right into my face when she was talking to me. Like some ah lian. wth.

Chanel Love

I LOVE CHANEL’S COSMETICS!!

Let me rave about their makeup and skincare. Im like totally into this brand now. Price wise, its a little steep compared to other brands, but definitely worth it because of its high quality. Wanted to buy eyeshadow palette from Stila, went to tried on their limited edition palette…in the end my eyes looked like they just got punched by JM. He totally dont fancy the colors at all. So i went over to Chanel…been a big fan of their nail polish and blusher…but i was looking for eyeshadow and i saw this lovely latest release of eyeshadow palette. There are 4 colors: ivory white, light blue, light grey and dark blue. You can use them for smoky eyes effect but its also great to wear the colors plain. Love it.

Not the shade i bought.

I only used 2 shades on the eyeshadow palette, light blue and light grey. So i look like this:

And 2 days later, i decided to get an eye concealer for my dark circles. So i walked over to Chanel @ Raffles City and end up buying their eye concealer and waterproof eye liner. PERFECT. The concealer is great because it not only covers my dark rings due to lack of sleep and stress, it provides radiance and brightens up my eye contours, which is EXACTLY what i need. All for the price of $52, if i remembered correctly.

Anyways, 1 week ago, i went to Haji Lane with Eunice and JM. I love the place, cos its so peaceful and quiet filled with a unique sense of vintage and retro. Its like, back to the 80s.

I would love to have a shop there. Hmmm. The thought of it makes me excited. Heard from friends that rental is cheap? Im not sure how much it is…but if its within my budget, maybe i can start planning. Saw some empty units there. I can probably work full time after i graduate to have a taste of working life for 6 months and meanwhile, have a shop there?! Im still trying to figure out what i really wanna do after graduation. Work or continue with what im doing? Its a big question mark in my head. Somehow if i dont try working for a while, i will feel regretful that i never enjoy working life before? But then at the same time, my bf always tell me to do what i love and believe in. Im so confused.

Emo.

My bro called up this online pet grooming company and asked them to come over my house to give Vicky a “makeover” to her long nails and unclean ears. Its a mobile grooming company on the move and the charges are relatively cheap, $40.00 for basic grooming and $50.00 for full grooming. Vicky, being so tiny and fur-less(short fur, i mean), only needs basic grooming of course.

The guy came and took Vicky into his van where the grooming took place. Initially, she started to shiver and tremble. That always happens when we bring her to the vet or groomer. Somehow, she knows. But soon after, she just sat there quietly and let that guy cut her nails. I was quite taken aback. He asked me how old is my dog. I replied, “almost 9 yrs old.” And he said, “Oh, quite old.” These words struck me really hard. They are stuck in my head for 1 whole day.

Vicky is already 9 years old. Time flies. I bought her in year 2000 and now, she’s 8+ going to be 9. At the beginning when i made up my mind to take care of her forever, i never give a thought that one fine day, she will eventually grow old like humans and leave me. And because of that, this thought scares the hell out of me every time they popped into my mind. I shiver at the thought of it. I always choose to avoid and think of something else. But somehow, reality is getting into me. That she’s really old. On my way home today, flashbacks of her when she’s young and really tiny like a hamster…running around in my pasir ris flat..to my sengkang condo…and to my current changi house made me tear. Suddenly, reality hit me really hard and force me to accept it. As much as i want to keep her forever by my side, i cant. And all these while, especially these 2 years, i gotta admit that i neglected her a lot as compared to past. I REALLY REGRET. So sad to even think about it cos there’s no going back.

I dunno when that fateful day is going to come when Vicky gotta cross the rainbow bridge..but i know it will be one of my saddest days. I will probably need a damn long time to recover and whichever new dogs my dad buy for me is never gonna replace her. Actually i have this thought about repaying dogs for their loyalty. When i just bought Vicky, she’s only a puppy and her loyalty grew day by day. Her love for me and my other family members is deep-delved. But the day when she leaves, i will need to repay her for her loyalty with tears, sadness and thoughts of missing her so badly.

Hell Week.

I got 2 project presentations due this coming week. 1 presentation + 1 report + 1 quiz due next week. Wish me good luck man. School is absolute insane. Every semester, around this time, i will hog onto my lappie for more than 8 hours a day, at least.

Like today, a perfect example. I was online from 10am till 1am(13 hours!!) But doing mds work. Straight 13 hours, i almost self-pronounced brain dead. After we click launch, we cant take it anymore. Headed towards Barks Cafe near my house for drinks and snacks.

Anyways, i finally have that tiny bit of time to spend a few hours cruising Orchard with JM. We haven dated for quite some time, i think like 3 weeks? Every weekend is burnt doing work, either school or mds. Weekdays is worse. 100% school. So we managed to squeeze some time out to relax and shop. Im soo deprived of shopping that i actually spree intensively this week, especially when USD is dropping so much. On top of that, i bought a top from this online shop in Spore which doesnt fit me at all!

2 birthdays in 24 hours.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EUNICE & CHERYL!

I ate 2 birthday cakes today, all thanks to these girls! One from Canelle and the other from Four Leaves! Yummy, but im seriously suffering cake phobia now, kinda sick of it.

Prezzie from me & Jm!

 Birthday Girl

Zhiwei, Eunice, me & Desmond(Promo mgt group mates)

Prezzie: Agnes B Doggie tags (Pretty, isnt it?)

Posing with the cake

2nd Birthday: Cheryl’s birthday

Sweet 17!

Cheryl & me

growth.

Someone who applied for Launch Assistant position emailed me and said this:

“Had observed how your business flourished since blog spot to what it is now. I have to express my admiration for the work and effort you put in. Being a marketing student, i think it’s pretty well work.”

Her words kinda left me deep in my thoughts for a moment. Sudden flashbacks from setting up the business, taking unprofessional photos, struggling to expand customer base, messy blog spot website, troubled over numbers and costs to this present day…i think its a long path crossed with obstacles and achievements, pushing our limits to the extreme end. And along this way, i witnessed and experienced the slow and steady growth myself. Im sure many other loyal regular customers of us can feel the growth. In fact, they are the ones who accompanied us throughout this tedious process. We dont see the need of having a testimonial column to showcase all the positive comments from customers cos we know our strong commitment in this business and we are very sure customers can feel it.

At this moment, we are still growing. Its not the end yet. One fine day, i will reach my final destination where my goal is.

Happy & sad.

JM is gonna squeeze my neck and look at me with his “barely-open” small eyes(OOPS DEAR!) with a slight tinge of embarrassment on his face…but…who cares! Hah, i have been so tempted to post this entry up since V Day okay.

But on a serious note, i really feel that i have a very thoughtful, creative and maybe one of the sweetest boyfriend in this world. We may quarrel quite often over work, bicker almost every week or shout at each other when we cant endure each other’s nonsense anymore…but i think at the end of the day, i will still go to him and just stay by his side. To him, that matters a lot. Instead of words assurance or pampering, i think he needs more support and encouragement from me.

I remembered we had a big quarrel before Valentine’s day, but i totally cant remember what its about actually. I have this bad illness of not being able to remember what happened after the quarrel. Most of the time, i will suffer from serious amnesia. Especially if we quarrel at night, the next morning i woke up, im perfectly back to normal. I really dunno why im lidat, told my frens about it and they said its all because the things i quarrel with JM were actually very minor so i dont even remember them at all. Sounds reasonable enough. Anyway, besides a bouquet of roses and v day prezzie(K.S bag which i chose myself and he subsidized half), he did up this really amusing but meaningful little gift for me. Its really like something that money cant buy because every word and every picture inside represents his whole heart and love. Every aspect of it shows the deep understanding of my life and what revolves around me. I dont want to take it for granted that he SHOULD know me very well since we are going into almost 1.5 years into the rs, but i dont think i can find a man who treats me better than him. Thats the reason i can never let him go no matter how serious our quarrel is.

I think this is the 4th time im looking this little notebook and im still pretty much amused by it. Haa.

On that day he actually presented to me “Geo’s Top Ten Agents”, whom is none other than…HIM. )

Its really sweet how he will make the effort to buy me breakfast when im still sleeping soundly and wake me up with my daily dosage of coffee and “char bee hoon” or “duck rice”. Thats the usual stuff for breakfast. Otherwise it would be ham sandwich.(Look closely at his props for all the pictures. He had sooo many different props which he specially “kop” from his house).

Usually guys find menses a taboo, but to him, he will shower me with extra concern during this 1 week becos he knows i will be in pain due to my severe cramps. He will always offer to put a hot towel over my tummy.

He’s my personal finance controller. All thanks to him, otherwise i think my room would be too packed with my shopping barangs.

True enough, he’s the first person i would find or talk to whenever i feel upset with anything. Its like natural instinct that i would look for him first.

For this i really gotta thank him. Along with this partnership, he took away all the things that i dislike in this business and let me enjoy only the things i love to do. I never knew i would have this chance.

I must try my best not to make him sad in anyway so he wont smoke. He always tell me im his only source of unhappiness.

He’s my personal JUKEBOX, as always.

All thanks to him, i finally learnt how to take supplements for my daily dietary habit to improve my poor health.

This is one of his strengths, no doubt. He knows i freak out whenever i see insects, even ants. So he committed alot of murder by killing them.

This is my favorite.

Job Position-Launch Assistant

Part-time position available: MDS Launch Assistant

-Open to everyone!

Job Scope:

Assistance in MDS’s weekly launch

Work from home

Once a week, short & flexible hours

Back end operations

Job Requirements:

Interest in Fashion, knowledge about latest updates/trends

Stays in East & student(preferably)

Allowance: 

SGD 50 per job(on a weekly basis)

Interested, please email us at business@mdscollections.com. We will get back to you shortly.

I’m tired.

Really tired and all drained.

Just want to retreat to a corner and where there are no eyes watching me. No attention on me. No intimidation.

I was completely awed while writing my resume. What have i achieved these 2 years or so? This double whammy and insecure anxiety is driving me insane mentally. I paid a price for doing what i love personally. But academically, i suffered. I cant pen anything else but everything about MDS on my resume. There’s nothing else in my head right now.

MDS Spring Fair @ SMU

Feel free to drop by my school for a shopping spree, cos my shipment of more than 100 designs of apparels has FINALLY ARRIVED! Lotsa pretty pretty clothes, bags and accessories You wont want to miss this fabulous shopping experience!

Hope to see some familiar faces on wed!