A PACK OF LIES

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Sometimes im being forced to be nonchalant about certain things.

Sometimes, as much as i want to explain my reasons and what really happened, i cannot because it is a business, not just my personal interests. So many parties are involved which makes clarification so much harder and complicated.

Sometimes, because there are some people out there who are dying to earn that extra profit margin, my efforts are diluted and my designs/ideas are broadcast.  My heart sank whenever i see the designs hanging on some mannequins in Far East or even retailing at some online websites. There’s nothing i can do or explain as long as i dont have my own factory production. I will reach there one day, i know for sure. So for now, just bear with me and trust what MDS can offer to everyone.

I wont hide under my blanket and weeped late at night anymore. Really gotta brace up and be stronger even these kinda things happen so often that im kinda immune. At the end of the day, i will still go back to my interest and passion for fashion because this is something that i want to do forever and something that i can truly relate to myself.

Im DYING to design clothes and broadcast to the whole world. Im dying to launch my label. And i will do whatever it takes to reach that.

I heart all Dog-lovers

As JM was driving me home last week after a late night at my boutique, i came across this guy who looks like a pro cyclist along Bugis area. From far, he looked like a normal cyclist with another friend but if you stare deep into the picture below…he had his dog strapped across his back!!!

Aw~ Its soo adorable, isnt it? Dog & owner sharing a common interest together! The dog totally enjoyed the company of his owner and the freedom and excitement from the cycling expedition! I love to look at dogs who are so pampered and doted by the owner, not dogs who are abandoned and neglected because of some illogical and ridiculous reasons. I came across alot of these examples and every time my heart will be broken.

Hai, sometimes humans just love to abuse their status and mistreat their dogs. But they never get this fact right. We have so many frens and relatives and family to care and love us..but our dog only has us as a family. And our love for them is all that matters to them. Every time i neglect Vicky, i will recall this belief i have and feel so sorry towards Vicky.

RANDOM happenings…

Brought JM to facial at Derma Solutions! He damn sua gu, never go facial before but can tell he enjoyed it because after the facial, his face felt so much cleaner! All the clogged pores are gone! I also convinced him to sign the IPL package to treat his face scars…hopefully can see significant results!

Cuz its his first time..so i waited soo long outside the salon. Until i wanna doze off!

NEW OFFICE:

Anyways MDS shifted to a new office! These few weeks were really pure madness! Boutique so busy, yet at the same time we gotta shift office! I prefer the current one, twice bigger and newer air-con, facilities etc. Basically, a better environment to work in and more capacity to expand! But dunno why, no matter how big the office is, my table is still as messy as ever.

Jm @ work:

Nails Session @ Charme: I went to do nails with Eunice 2 days ago but almost all my crystals dropped! Damn sad, so i went back to Charme yesterday and ask them to redo it for me! I think by the time lunar new year arrive, all my crystals will drop until left nothing!

Anyways, HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!

Is this dumb or plain stupid..or both?!

I went for my 3rd week of World Travel & Tourism class yesterday. Its my last module before i officially graduate from SMU. And guess what? I heard the most ridiculous question asked by this year 1 or 2 guy..totally zero common sense. I dunno if he is being stupid for the sake of participation marks or what. But it certainly made me expressionless for quite a while, cuz i was thinking, “why smu take in such a senseless guy?!”

Seriously, the school is filled with people who think they are soo smart and speak without going through their brain just to earn some participation marks.

Some guy present a topic on Banyan Tree and how they can stay competitive in the tourism industry. He mentioned that BYT’s occupancy rate averages only about 60% which is considered below the normal average of 70% for all hotels/resorts in the world. Singapore’s hotels average above 80%. SO, after the presentation…that guy(dunno his name) suddenly spoke and just as i anticipate a SMART and intelligent question out from his mouth, he asked, “Do you think that it might be Banyan Tree’s strategy to allow the occupancy rate to be low like 60% so they can better serve their customers and have more quality service?”

WA LAO EH!!!!@#$%^&*()_

Totally out of the world!

Did he come from another world or planet?

In the first place, if this is Banyan Tree’s strategy then i can say the hotel is totally incompetent and inferior. Secondly, which hotel in the world dont want to boost their occupancy rate whenever they can? High occupancy rate = MORE MONEY AND BETTER BUSINESS. Thirdly, why would customers want to stay in a renown hotel with little customers?! Its all about wholesome experience right.

Still cannot believe i heard this question. Luckily im not the presentor, otherwise i’ll offend another guy in my school again.

Good & Bad

Im having gum infection for the past 1 week or so.

My wisdom tooth came out and i got to get rid of it.

The thought of operation irks me. Cos i will simply faint seeing my own blood.

I fell today while walking down my house stairs. It happened this morning.

I had one of the worst cramps ever. Almost died of severe pain.

But other than all these…

the good happenings are:

1. We are shifting to a newer, bigger office. Twice bigger than the current one and better facilities, photoshoot equipments and personal space for everyone!

2. More and MORE new releases everyday

3. I’m doing what i love everyday, despite feeling completely worn out after 6pm.

4. I came to realize that its a blessing to be able to do what i love, especially with my significant other.

5. That i really cannot leave him despite the numerous quarrels we had over work and personal life.

6. More time for Vicky.

7. Slowly getting back my routine and organized lifestyle that i treasure.

8. This design is back again after so long!!!!

GREEN TOO!

Jan Catalog is up!

Only 20% of Jan’s catalog is up! But they are all so pretty!!!

I love this dress. Mphosis inspired and we only made limited pieces for both colors!

But note the sizing though, i made this design more for petite girls. Cos the ptp is rather small..can only fit up to UK 8. If there’s demand for bigger sizes, we will repeat it in bigger ptps.

STAY TUNE…ITS GONNA BE OUT TMR!

Take time off?

I have been working on MDS religiously for 2.5 years. Every single day.

But things had taken on a different light these few months.

At this point in time, Im happy to own my personal office. And even discussing taking another one. Im relieved to open a boutique. Im glad to see a website that all of us created with our efforts and hard work. Im grateful to receive numerous models’ agency, show models and star bloggers portfolio to model for us. I appreciate all these.

But i sacrificed all other things. I dont care how people envy what i have or even thinks that i earn alot of money. The money that i earned…never once have i felt that it really belonged to me. The only thing that keeps me in this business is nothing but interest and passion for fashion and designing. I hate systems, processes, unexpected circumstances that bound to pop up everyday and the undeniable chaos in the workplace.

My life isnt like this before. The little luxuries i once enjoyed are all compromised. But i yet treasured them so much. Not shopping, not spending money. Just the luxury of leading a normal, evenly-paced lifestyle that everyone else is leading. Waking up at 9am, taking my time to dress up, having a nice breakfast at home, coming home at 6pm to have dinner with my family, spending time with my dog, watching 9pm show with my family and eating fruits, surfing net after 10pm and sleeping before 12am. I haven had this kinda day since 2 years ago.

JM knows how many times i broke down in front of him because i just cant take this tremendous amount of change and stress. The moment i open my eyes every morning, its a mad rush until 10pm at night.

And the saddest thing is, i cant differentiate my boyfriend and working partner anymore. He feels that its all my own thinking because he doesnt feel this way. But its exactly how im feeling these while.

He asked me whats the lifestyle i used to lead last time and i told him about a usual day at home. To him, its nothing special but to me its the basic enjoyment i have in my life. To spend time with my dog and at home because i really treasure all these alot. But now, i dont even see my parents for as long as 1 week. The only means of communication is sms. Because sometimes i dont see my mum for a period of time, she can ask me whether she has grown fatter. Its a sad thing. And my dog, i rushed to work every morning and the only moment i can spend with her is when i come home late at night.

Im having qualms about continuing this mad rush. Im having the most difficult struggle ever. He asked me to think it over and take a long break from the business. To get myself out of the business for a period of time so i can give it a serious thought. He said 3 days or 1 week is not enough at all because im so tired from everything. Perhaps a month or two will be sufficient for me to sort out everything?

Frankly speaking, i find it hard to stop this mad race. Because im in it for so long already. But yet it seems like the solution to every of my distress.

Post X’mas entry

Haha, i know im rather lagged because its already 1st day of 2009 and my X’mas photos are still in my “to blog” folder. Cos i just came back from HK not long ago and amazingly, today(01.01.2009) i was bestowed a PUBLIC HOLIDAY just like everyone else out there! Yay! Im in a super good mood because its been god damn long since i have the luxury to stone at home with the company of my dog.

Besides the long overdue photos from X’mas, i have hundreds of photos from my HK trip too. I fly there very often but its JM’s first and its our sort of short holiday trip hence it held a greater significance to me as compared to the usual trips.

Anyways,

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! 2009 WILL BE A FANTASTIC YEAR!

Cos i gave a serious thought to my new year resolutions. Its always the first important and urgent thing i will do at the start of every year so i have a better idea of my directions in life. Its really essential to me. I have already pen it down and place it in front of my table so i can be reminded of them everyday. Shall share it with everyone after i finish blogging all my long overdue photos.

Both X’mas & New Year were spent at Min’s house. I think her place has officially become UG’s gathering hot spot! And not to forget Meng’s Wii!! Both days were spent playing Wii the entire night and me & Min end up with arms muscle aches the next day. I hate gaming…but i totally enjoyed Wii though i suck at it! No one wants me in their team when we play competitive, except for my dearest bf of course. UG damn idiot. HAHA. But its okay. Its all about having fun! Heard from bro that he’s buying Wii too, maybe i can brush up my skills at home?!(Ahem**..UG, stay tune to my vast improvement kk)

Also met up with my poly friends on X’mas eve because i haven seen them for the longest time ever! Especially when Juliet is still in US and all of us are busy with our career. The biggest news is: Sharon has a bf!!!!! So happy for her yet pity with her bf. HAHAHA. Sharon sure bully him everyday. I know my good pal.