Lethargic me.

Im very sleepy since this morning, my eyes droopy, no mood to dress up and totally feel like tossing in my bed forever. Been having late nights everyday.

Until i read this and it gave me all the motivation to work again.

” She has always been inspired by her father, who is a successful businessman. That has led her to want to earn her own keep but she didn’t know what she wanted to do. “It was like a void in my life and MDSCOLLECTIONS filled that gap.”
” Initially, Georgiana’s father was not very supportive of his daughter’s start up. He understood the risks and sacrifices involved in running a business, and he was unwilling to see Georgiana putting herself through such hardship. Nonetheless, he was won over by his daughter’s commitment and has since been a strong advocate of her business.”

Not sure why but these few sentences inevitably placed a smile across my face and gave me strength to work for the rest of the week ahead.

Are we mad?

Boss says,

” Change the entire website’s photos with all the new props.”

Geo says,

“Are you mad? Its 6 pages of photos, that means, 6*20= 120 designs.”

Boss says,

“Bo bian, standardize leh.”

Geo says,

“Ok lor. Tell Sydney to arrange shoots every single day.”

IM OVERWORKED. Hopefully the satisfaction after the big change is worth all the time and effort. Otherwise i’ll really scream at him.

=(

Late night randoms

Whats with the huge appetite nowadays?!

If only i can eat and eat without getting fat and feeling too full. Drove past a few Jap restaurants along East Coast and felt really hungry. But we have already decided on zhi cha at East Coast former “Lagoon”. I asked my driver whether we can eat both?! Haha.

Ate too full and went home to sleep. Dream about MDS organizing a sale at Suntec Convention Hall but no one came cos it poured like crazy!

Guess im too stress up about the weekend sale.

Its gonna be crazy.

I have to miss my class again.

Its the 4th time. Wa lao eh, how to graduate lidat?! Im forever stuck with smu.

Tomorrow is going to be a hell Saturday.

30-50% store wide. More than 200 designs & many more not shown on the sale preview. 7 racks of clothing.

I have been doing channeling of stocks since 3 days ago, luckily i have Vernice to help me. Otherwise i’ll just drown in the stocks.

Imagine the fitting room queue.  We have an additional room now, that will shorten the line a bit.

Hopefully it doesnt rain tomorrow. Haha.

Im really missing those fun!

This week has been a mad rush for me, right after Fang & Meng’s wedding.

And i really got to say, i miss those few days of joy and absolute fun! The whole wedding affair got us together so close. Until now, i think i still havent gotten over it. Hee. Am i the only one who feel this way?!

Bridesmaids met for the first time(Finally, a decent shot after many failed attempts).

Gathering at Haji Lane for some shopping.

Doing up the surprise video & recording our voices(all thanks to ting for the hard effort).

The couple having a great laugh over the surprise video.

Crying and feeling touched.

Late night slumber party.

Unleashed our camwhoring love.

Dressing up and doing nails for the wedding, only to realize we are all the same-BIMBOS.

Waking up at 5am for tea ceremony.

Torture the guys, even our respective bfs.

And so many more happy moments.

ohayo!

Good morning, world.

Today will be a better day for me.

Hehe.

I had a really bad nightmare last night. Its scary how the dream was seemingly so true. Even after i woke up, i can recall everything that happened. Did i hear too many planes flew accross my roof or something?

I got the bouquet!!!!! What now?

Even though im dying to get married(as mentioned in my recent posts), i didnt expect to get the bouquet from Fang. Gosh.

Which traditionally means, IM THE NEXT TO GET MARRIED?!

I hope this is a myth because it will be crazy to be the next to get married without much concrete plans!

It was almost meant to be Min’s catch. She was standing and jumping right in front of me.

I was the shortest of all who qualifies as single and available hence i knew most prob it wouldnt be me. BUT WTH?!

It landed right into my hands before i knew it. Without much hassle.

And now, i dunno whether to feel happy or stress. HAHAHA.

I should say, its impossible i will get married anytime soon. Face it. Even though my grandparents just told me they yearn for me to get hitch soon. My parents too. But its impossible and never gonna happen anytime soon.

Until i get over the entire financial bubble on his side and the endless prejudice i have against him and his family, i dont think we can ever be together peacefully and i cannot give him the due respect that he deserves. I tried and tried but i failed again and again. Its the most difficult problem i have ever come across, as much as i really want to get them out of my head and accept everything with gratification. But the truth is, i cannot. I know very well that everyone cannot choose their own family and their own set of problems but when it concerns my happiness and my life, im still no matter involved in this whole frenzy. Selfish, yes i am. Its my future that im talking about. I believe i have the right to choose my own happiness and decide what kind of life i shall lead. I cant be forever living under my parents’ wings and never grow up or find someone i can truly depend on.

I hate my hair to smell of cigarette smoke everytime i go there. I hate my nose to be choked with all these odours whenever i go there. I hate to face their problems. I hate to accept his lie and broken promises. I hate to be taught that i have to accept everything on their side just because i love him. Its unfair that i have to accept so many things in this relationship just because he’s the guy i want to be with. Why put me in such situation in the first place when i never make his life difficult? Maybe, im just a woman who doesnt know how to love a man. Its so difficult to love someone. The ideals i have about love is so different from the current situation im facing now.

I remind myself all the time, “geo, accept it. its okay.” But reminding is much easier than really accepting it. I just cannot cross this obstacle. In fact, i have more and more prejudice against things that im neutral about in the past. Because of him and everything around him.

Nobody really understands the emotion turmoil i go through. Its taken for granted that i can take everything with stride? And whatever things people push to me, i have to accept and welcome them with my hands?

Its just 2 completely different worlds. I dont know how to step into his world and adapt to his way of living. I tried living it, but its as if im suffering. Yet when he step into my world, i treat him like an outsider who doesnt belong to my world. I look down on him.

So in the end, its just 2 different worlds. Im such an idiot. I always feel blissful and happy that im with him at this moment and suddenly, i feel so lost and down about our future. Its 2 extreme emotions im feeling all the time and at the end of the day, i have to reassure myself that everything is going to be fine. I can give in my happiness to make sure his family is saved. But my personal emotions, is something that wont be solved at all.

In such a mess, isnt it?

Slumber party!

Fang’s hens night was a slumber party spent at Min’s house! Never had a slumber party before so i thought the idea was rather interesting. It was great fun camwhoring, chatting, doing eye masks, laughing about all the stupids things, and driving through Mac to buy supper at 3am! If not for my dumb gastric pain, i would have enjoyed the party even more. I had quite a hard time enduring the cramps while still happily chatting with my good pals.

Thank you Min who made me a mug of really hot Milo to soothe the cramps.

And of course, thanks to everyone who made me realize that IM DAMN GOOD AT MAKING UGLY FACES! Not just plain photo whoring and look politically correct all the time. I can do any expression, just name it. And thanks huh, for avoiding to lie next to me for photos cos my face will make your faces look huge?! HAHA. My dear friends have never-ending concerns when it comes to taking photos. “ah, my face big. oh no, my hair not nice, shit, pimples!!!” The chaos going behind taking photos is damn hilarious! How i wish i can video it all down.

Anyways, just some photos to share. The rest will be posted by Min on Facebook. I will upload them soon too.

THEY ASKED ME TO DO UGLY FACE while they look so pretty in the pictures! Damn idiot. I remembered this happened after i took the picture above cos my face look small. So i look damn freaking ugly in this picture! NO IMAGE LIAO LOR, SERIOUSLY. How am i gonna face the world?!!!

Nvm its okay. I did a solo picture after that. To make up for everything. HAHAHA.

And other really sweet pictures of everyone:

The infamous out of the bed look(after several attempts) & Min look so damn irritating in the last picture:

Me, the Bride & our chao chao:

Me, the wedding planner(chey! I wish lor):

Finally, a decent shot:

MASKS TIME! Yay! I just went to the facial not long ago, so i only did cucumber eye mask from Sephora! Brought along my whole bag of masks for them to try, Ting did a milk & egg mask and cucumber eye mask while the rest did eye masks! Damn cute lah. See how they look with those cucumbers.

We look horrendous in masks!

I kinda love slumber parties now! Hehe!

In Love with KS!

Im smitten with Kate Spade’s latest collection of bags!

OH SO SPRING!

Became their vip member..which entitles me to 10% off all items at their store plus during private season preview, i can get 37% OFF! Why 37%? Its because 30% + 10%. Hooray. Urps.

Bought  this cosmetic case…custom vintage rose print!! Basically, anything to do with ROSE…i simply cannot say no! Every pouch is different because of the custom print, so pick the one you love the most!

And my fav bag for this now:

None other than the cape may tracy bucket bag! In a lovely sweet fuschia pink color! Love the unique Italian tween too! But the not-so-good point about this bag is that its not made of full leather but the price i paid is almost as good as buying those typical branded leather bags. Also, if the tween part gets hooked onto something, it will just frail and there is no way to save it. Means, must take extra good care of it lor! And thats really difficult because my current wardrobe is bursting so i gotta extend it for more bags & clothes.

But anyway, the design is really to die for! At least to me. I stared at the bag for at least 4 times when i walked past the boutique at Raffles City before deciding to get it! Because the price is quite steep and i should really stop buying bags. So full of irony right. Argh.

Before i go and say goodnight to the world..i must really say, the wedding fever is penetrating to every single part of my body. And i simply cannot stop thinking and just wish time can pass faster so it can be turn soon. Along with this wedding frenzy and parents’ advice, im rather worried that i might have to go back on my word and be a little selfish this time.  Maybe…perhaps…i shouldnt help at all. But wouldnt he be too pitiful to be left alone to solve this mess? Argh..what should i do? Is there another better alternative that wont sacrifice or lower my chances?

Ahead of us

I will work my heart out. Do everything i can at all costs.
Just for it to happen.
I swear it will happen, soon.