Get over it.

Past 3 years of endless thinking made me realize that its impossible to get over it.

Time after time, I persuaded myself to let go and move on.

But time after time, I failed.

I’m a complete stubborn freak who lives in my own world of standards and ideals. These standards caused a wreck to my emotions and I simply cannot be happy.

Great. It made me come to terms with myself that there are just some things in life that you can never get over it.

And tell yourself, its okay. Look on the bright side, await a good future.

I cannot convince myself to forget the past and move towards the future.

Im so stucked.

Every girl’s dream

No doubt, it’s mine too.

To have a perfect, dreamy and most romantic wedding.

Watched mediacorp’s Fann & Chris wedding and Im filled with envy and more envy.

My goosebumps stood when I saw that part where they flew to Maldives for wedding photoshoot. My gosh, really. I turned to JM and said, “If I ever get married to you, we can do the same too, bring our reflectors, lights and dslr and have our wedding photos taken in Maldives, with our own props.” Hehe.

And her indie wedding gown…stunning.

Honestly, I would never compromise anything for my dream wedding, as shallow as it may sound to some people.

But too bad, I want the most memorable event in my life to be my wedding day and where all the rightful attention belong to me and my husband. That big day will require extra detailed and careful planning by my future husband to make it the best day of my life! Yes, I admit I have high expectations of my wedding, heh. No compromise!

Pleasant surprise!

Just when I nag at my bf for being not romantic,

he gave me 2 pairs of lovely earrings exactly to my taste on 2 separate times as 2 pleasant surprises!

A changed man, but I like.

Wedding Bells & My Humble House

JM’s bro had his wedding at Botanical Gardens last Sunday.

I didnt managed to snap a lot of pics because the weather was scorching hot and I was too hungry to do anything.

my smartly dressed bf.

But of course since his brother got married, naturally people who walked past JM & me would asked, “when is your turn? Soon huh?”

Guess whats our reply? “HAHA”

What a dumb reply, seriously.

Wore this dress to his wedding and I’m really flattered by all the positive comments i got from his relatives and friends.

It’s from River Island but im not sure how much they are retailing it. Bought it not too long ago for this event. Anyway, if you adore sequins dresses as much as me, stay tune to mds sequins designs! We have many different types of sequin stuffs for various occasions. And we also have a similar sequin dress like the one I wore at a much affordable price.

Coincidentally, 20/09 was also our anniversary date. So he brought me to “My Humble House” after the event ended. According to my bf who google quite a bit about this restaurant at Esplanade, its rated No.98 in terms of world best restaurants.

True enough, the food was thumbs up! So delicious and definitely worth the money paid for! If you are thinking of spending that money in a fine-dining French restaurant in Spore(which most of them suck), you can seriously consider going to My Humble House instead. They serve Asian-Chinese cuisine in fine-dining style.

Good food but i didnt fancy their weird-looking chopsticks rest that look like ginger or someone’s finger.

sleepless night

Couldnt slept a wink until 3am last night after I knew about my Grandpa’s health condition. Extremely heartbreaking to hear that he has reached 4th stage of cancer. As much as Mum consoles me that everyone have to leave this world one day especially since he’s old, I still have difficulty coming to terms with this cruel truth.

When you are so used to having your loved ones around you, even if you dont see them often, but at least no matter how fast your pace of daily life is, you know there is this someone whom you love dearly, and now knowing that he might just leave you soon, its so heartbreaking.

Then i asked myself what is the most important thing to me in this world. And I realized its not career, not building a great business, not wants and needs, not money, not achievements, not relationship love, but family. I kept thinking about my grandpa today and the thought of him leaving us one day really made my mood plunged to rock-bottom and left me with no drive to do anything else.

Hope that God wont take him away so soon.

In need of sleep.

Just touched down at the airport, rushed to office to get my pair of ms Selfridge heels for my bf’s brother wedding tomorrow noon. After i ended my hustling and hectic trip in Korea, its another mad rush for tmr’s wedding(will post up photos of the wedding tmr night).

And Daddy just informed me that Monday is Hari Raya, which means its public holiday and equivalent to a no-rest day for me cos my staff will all go on leave.

Im extremely tired at this moment.

This time round the biz trip was really demanding of my energy. My hours were upside down, slept at 5am every morning and wake up at 12pm in the noon to see fabrics. On top of that, weather is cold and becoz it’s that time of the month, my stomach had severe cramps for 2 days.

So glad im back in my homeland again. Argh, i really hate to travel so frequently, if not for my job.

Anyway, i managed to squeeze some time to change a new hair color to match my new hairstyle. Went back to my hairstylist at Juno Hair cos their service is excellent and i love my stylist by the nickname of Sexy Han(Thats what she calls herself!). Love my new color, a different look to the previous reddish brown shade. Its full brown this time round.

How my hair looked when I walked out of the salon.

Prefer it to be blown this way though, more natural.

Ahh, very tired…heading to bed now. Good night world!

Smellin’ of rust

I love to camwhore but in a recent mds photoshoot to kickstart our shoes category, i felt so damn rusty modeling shoes.

My favourite pair of the lot, superb for parties!

Have to admit that i actually felt nervous while posing in the shoes. Guess im really rusty since i stopped appearing on the website more than 1 year ago. Its difficult to model shoes as compared to clothes because you have to pose in such a way that the shoes stands out more than the clothes you are wearing. Anyways, i hand this difficult task over to my models.

Thats cos im loving my backend which many think that its plainly involving opening and closing my haji lane shop everyday! Urps, i know i shouldnt be saying this but during busy days, i can forget about my shop completely until when i finally sit down and catch my breath will i recall that i actually have a shop to take care of. And plus, my models are doing a great job, much better than i did last time.

A Monday full of bluess

My face and my body cramped for the entire body. My body had cramps all over because it’s that time of the month but my face cramped because i had a bad day at work.

Rarely will i have bad days at work unless someone really come and step on my tail.

A business involving too much personal ties will make it so personal that everything in between become tumbling blocks of progression. Im not a believer of running family business in perfect harmony, hence i never agree to step into my dad’s business no matter what. Built my own and now it has somehow also evolved into a business involving personal relationships.

I felt so helpless when people said no to me again and again. Nothing is impossible to me when it comes to satisfying my customers but there will be just some people who are too opinionated in their own world and think that everything is not possible. I said yes and they said no. Its so infuriating and frustrating. Being selfish means they cannot see things from my perspective and from customers’ perspectives; i worked so hard as a merchandiser bringing in nice stuffs and coming up with our own designs to present the best storefront to customers yet simple and logical things like practicing certain standards of quality control is out of the question for some people.

Can i not be angry then? Hence, i sat there with frustration and with my poor neck which i sprained 2 days ago,  trying to rectify every single piece until its perfect and worth every penny paid by a customer. I hate being a perfectionist, but in this line, i have to.

What a day to start the rest of my week. Thankfully i get to eat my favourite food in Korea.

No bfs friday night

JM & I set a rule last week. That is, every Friday shall be a friends night.

No seeing of each other.

So its gonna be another night at Butter Factory on Friday again. But only with my girls.

Bumped into so many people at Butter last week. Want to see familar faces, just head down to butter and you will definitely see.

And seriously, people there dressed like as if they are attending a costumes’ gala night. Youngsters nowadays really know how to dress up. Imagine all the lace gloves, feather fedoras, heavy makeup, etc. And the guys too…i spotted at least 6 out of 10 wearing fedoras. Haha. I wore a simple outfit, spag strap with high waist skirt(forever a fan of high waist skirts).

My arms and stomach look humongous here. Time to exercise some diet control…been eating and snacking non-stop during work.

Speaking of high waist skirts, i realized few people in Singapore actually like wearing high waist skirts/shorts. I was showing one of my staff, Vernice this high waist shorts inspired by Chanel and she told me she feel weird wearing high waist stuffs cos it makes her upper body look short. Haha, she’s so cute. IMO, i think high waist outfits can actually make one’s legs look slimmer and longer and if worn right, makes the figure look slimmer too due to a well-accentuated waistline. I have at least 10 high waist skirts of various sorts and another 10 high waist shorts and jeans. Thats one fashion element that i wont get sick of.

Anyways, see ya at Butter this Friday!

Argghhh.

I HATE TO BE DISTRACTED.

Friggin’ irritating singing voices down below every evening.

Not a second pleasing to my poor ears.